Sitemeter - you're fired!

That's what I love about this disposable society we live in a few clicks and that's it chucked into the virtual wastebasket never to be retreived again.
I feel empowered as I sit here tapping away inexpertly on the keyboard. I can say: "Sitemeter - you're fired!" and aprt from the little message querying me to ask if I really am sure I want to get rid of it, that's it.
My decision to chuck away what has become a daily, nay hourly ritual, on my computer follows two days of no action whatsoever on Sitemeter, no new stats, nothing- who new how simple it would be to give it all  up? I thought I was an addict.
You see I have tried before to get rid of it but failed miserably. For while it worked it was impossible to forgo. I felt guilty about my constant checking, and stupid when I became upset that I had had no visitors to my blog for more than two hours on anyone day. Sitemeter fed my vanity.
But now it is gone.
Now I have a curious sense of loss and I am not quite sure what to do with all that time I now find on my hands. My fingers hover over the mouse but there is nothing to click.
But...
But there again there is always the Blogger Stats..just to keep me entertained of course!

Where’s my MoJo?

I am finding it seriously difficult to write anything on my blog. I just feel kind of stuck in a morass of indecision, half formed sentences and ideas that refuse to coalesce.

My sense of humour remains hidden along with inspiration and motivation.

This is serious.

I will be forced to take DRASTIC MEASURES to get my Mojo back.

I fear I will have to sign up again to a month of NaBloMo to get back into the swing of things.

I never expected it to be so hard

I mean I have just had a holiday of a lifetime with my family in South Africa; there are loads of tales to tell and anecdotes to share.

Some are truly funny.

But just writing that makes them suddenly seem flat.

Humph.

Maybe its the rain and grey clouds or maybe I just need to stop thinking and write.

How would you get your Mojo back?

My blogging life so far...

215,545 words give or take a few thousand.

Started on 7 March 2007

Comments I’ve made just shy of a further 200,000 words in that time.

My blogging life so far

But now I have run out of steam.

Come to an impasse so to speak.

Where do I go from here?

Total revamp?

Glitzy! New! Dynamic!

What to do?

Can I sustain a complete volte face?

A turn around?

I know myself too well. I am not brave.

Perhaps a break.

Or not…as the case maybe.

If I take a break will I ever start again?

Should I care?

Does it really matter?

It’s a blog not a opus magnus for fecks’sake?!!!???

So why do I care?

Because…

Because of all the words, all the time

Because just because I am not into it now doesn’t mean that I will not be in a few weeks or days’ time.

There should be no pressure about it.

I blog and That’s it.

I blog because I want to not because I feel I should.

I comment because I want to not because I am obliged to.

I have written so many words in anger, joy, pain and on reflection. Sometimes brilliantly, at least I think so, sometimes in a hurry. Passing thoughts, a turn of phrase and oh the words I have meant to write, the ones I planned to but couldn’t quite manage; the slippery impressions, ghosts of the things I could have written gone in a blink of an eye.

Notes on my life.

How I feel.

Snap shots.

My life. Their life

My blog.