|How I'd like to sleep - out cold!|
"Great!" I think, "Third night in a row when I won't be sleeping."
I hate waking up in the middle of the night because I know that it is very likely I won't be going back to sleep in a hurry.
I have insomnia and the most common form I have is the "wake up and not go back to sleep variety". There is also the "cannot get to sleep variety" that my youngest insists he has, only for me to come into his room five minutes later and find him comatose. Wish I had his variety...
When I wake up, I try very hard to pretend I haven't woken up and sometimes within seconds I drop back off to sleep again. After the first time I will wake up several times but in essence sleep through the night. Disturbed but at least not awake.
Sometimes try as I might I am awake all night too tired to get up but too awake to sleep.
Mostly I give up after an hour or so and switch on the light and read in an attempt to 'drop off'. Sometimes I just land up reading a whole book in one gulp. I know I should try more taxing books and bore myself to sleep but it takes too much concentration and then I just get grumpy.
The real difficulty about not sleeping is the why I am not sleeping now scenario.
Once I can work out they 'why's' I am a good way to feeling more relaxed (based on its better to know rather than guess frame of mind. I have been known to stay a wake all night worrying about the reason why I am worrying enough to keep me awake all night. That's just bizarre!
So why am I awake right now?
Well I am worrying - worrying about getting my work done before half term descends and I am effectively forced to pander to my boys rather than my work. If I could pander to my boys each and every whim without worrying about work that would be bliss but that is never the case and I land up pleasing no one. So if I get all my work done I won't have to worry and I'll get a good night's sleep.
Wish it were that simple all the time.
Worry is the thing that keeps me awake
Noises, cold and hunger are the things that wake me up.
- So eliminating noise is the first thing - I don't sleep with my husband because he snores. I keep every door shut in the house at night. I sleep in a room as far away from everybody as possible and I have a set of ear plugs.
- If I wake up cold first thing is a hot water bottle, fingerless gloves, extra duvet and my dear old bed socks. If it is really bad a hot bath though I have been known to fall asleep in the bath.
- If I wake up hungry - well I have a secret cookie jar that even the dogs don't know about for emergencies only.
Eat well, no alcohol before bedtime, plenty of exercise and fresh air, a warm lavender scented bath before bed and relax.
If you do wake up work out why you've woken up then stop worrying about it and do something to relax or at least keep your brain occupied until you forget about the reason why you have woken up.
- Try lying really still and counting slowly you have to lie still with no moving and relax while counting - as a kid I never got much above 45.
- The other thing is to meditate: try relaxing by talking yourself through the routine. Start with your toes and feet and imagine them being caressed by warm water just like when you first get into a delicious bath and relax all the way to the top feeling the warmth seep into every part of your body
- Accept that you are awake and stop worrying about not sleeping
- Read a book
- Have a bath
- Don't start mithering!